I am happy

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But what if I want something more from myself, but I don't know what it is or how to get it?

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Jacqui said…
Interesting thought. Are you feeling this way because all of your kids are in school and you want to try something new for yourself? Expound on this thought, please. I'd be interested to hear you flesh it out.
October 2, 2009 at 11:49 AM
Lindsay said…
Look at you with your new blog look. How's the other blog going? Did you decide on a blog or are you going website?
October 7, 2009 at 10:46 AM
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